Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Broken Hearted Single Girl

So what happens when you take yourself off the market after many years of being a single girl? You get your heart broken. That's what happened to me.  I put myself and my heart out there only for it to be trampled on.  So it starts to make me question myself.  Am I not capable of a loving adult relationship?  Will I forever be single?  Will I ever find the one for me?
Initially I felt like a fool for even putting myself out there. For even trying something new and turning over a new leaf.  For thinking that the person I was with could even potentially be the one for me.  And although I am disappointed by the outcome I know that I'm not a fool.  I took a chance on love.  I experienced what it was like to love someone and to be loved.  And although I gave a lot of myself and my time I don't regret it.  It was a learning experience. As my girlfriend said this relationship was just preparation for the right person.  I may not necessarily see it now but I know she's telling the truth.  
These past few months made me realize that I am fully capable of having a loving adult relationship.  I know that I can be that special someone for that special someone.  So now its just a matter of waiting for that one for me until then I'll continue being the single girl I once was.  Hopefully the wait won't be too long but either way it'll be worth the wait I'm sure.