Okay so the dating scene is quite lame. I mean I have really tried to be open minded and try out a dating site at the advice of friends. However, my account is now closed because that's just not my style. What happened to the old fashioned way of meeting guys? Guys actually approaching a female and saying something nice enough to get your attention and then have a nice convo from there? Oh wait that must only be in the movies cause i don't think I've ever seen that scene played out. But on the real where are the available, drama free, non issue having, respectable, ready to commit, not get on your nerves too much and treat you like a queen men at? I mean is something wrong here. Are we experiencing a shortage of good men? And don't get me wrong there are some good men out there but it's just taking me awhile to find him I guess. And then i look at some of my friends and realize I'm not the only one singing this tune. But I tell you what it's getting old real quick and frankly so am I. Can't I just find a normal guy? Lol. Someone told me the other day to lower my standards but I'm thinking geez if I lower them anymore than I might as well pick up any ole thing and that Is so not me and I'm just not into settling. So I'm going to take a hiatus from men for a minute. Who knows that man I'm looking for just might pop up. I'll stay hopeful.
So what happens when you take yourself off the market after many years of being a single girl? You get your heart broken. That's what happened to me. I put myself and my heart out there only for it to be trampled on. So it starts to make me question myself. Am I not capable of a loving adult relationship? Will I forever be single? Will I ever find the one for me?
Initially I felt like a fool for even putting myself out there. For even trying something new and turning over a new leaf. For thinking that the person I was with could even potentially be the one for me. And although I am disappointed by the outcome I know that I'm not a fool. I took a chance on love. I experienced what it was like to love someone and to be loved. And although I gave a lot of myself and my time I don't regret it. It was a learning experience. As my girlfriend said this relationship was just preparation for the right person. I may not necessarily see it now but I know she's telling the truth.
These past few months made me realize that I am fully capable of having a loving adult relationship. I know that I can be that special someone for that special someone. So now its just a matter of waiting for that one for me until then I'll continue being the single girl I once was. Hopefully the wait won't be too long but either way it'll be worth the wait I'm sure.